Counting Chickens

Well... the results are in and out of the 101 people who auditioned, maybe about 40 or so got called back. Yours truly... was not one of them. Yes, I know, I know I was confident--even going as far to say, "I'll let you know how call-backs go." But that obviously won't be happening and now I don't have a good reason to skip my awful personality theory class, much less drop it.

I think I didn't make call-backs (and here is not the time for me to be self-deprecating or insecure) because for the FIVE male roles (for the entire semester) that I was going to be going for, I don't fit the description for any of them in the slightest. One was a sixteen year old boy which I haven't been able to pull off since Freshman year, and the other four were men 30+ which I won't be able to pull of til after I graduate. I won't say that I didn't get called back because I'm not good or the monologue was a bad choice or the directors just don't like me (which is still highly possible), but I will say that maybe they didn't want to bother calling me back because I just don't fit the descriptions of the characters.

I think that's fair, right? Sure, I would have at least liked the chance to read for the characters and maybe change their mind. But hey, you win some, you lose some.

And no, I would never work backstage. I've never aspired to do work behind-the-scenes and I won't start now.

Still, I would be lying to say I wasn't hurt and mildly devastated since I had the impression that I would be in good favor for these parts. Regardless, the six year-old thing to do would be to cut off all friendships I've made in the theater department as a public protest of the unfair treatment I've received and a demonstration that I don't really care about any of this.

But I'm not six and that's not right so I guess the grown-up thing to do is to say, "It's fine, they didn't want to waste their time or mine on characters that I wouldn't even look like," and to remain friends with everyone and a familiar face around the department so everyone is constantly reminded of me and hope to the Lord and all his grace that somehow I'll catch a break.

So for those keeping score, that's 1/4 failures for this semester and 1/4 successes. The Radio Show (name pending) is still quite up in the air. I received an email from the director saying I should come to his office on Thursday to discuss the equipment and answer and questions I might have. So... it's highly possible that this could be happening by next week. I'm going for Wednesday at 5pm or sometime Monday-Friday before 2pm. We'll see.

And the other potential success? Not looking great, but we'll see. The semester is young but I think it might be aiming a little high on this one.

But I'll try to hold future speculations and/or predictions about my future lest I be...

counting chickens prior to emerging from their eggs.