Thursday, January 7, 2010

The burden of memory

So coming home often causes me to get real nostalgic. But lately I've been thinking a lot about much older memories from Elementary school, Middle school, and onward. Thinking about people I used to hang out with and talk to regularly--the same people who I lost contact with so long ago, I'm not even facebook friends with them. And I've tried to find them but can't; makes me surprised at how many people don't have a facebook.

But the point of this post is to talk about the memories I've been thinking about that involve these people I've lost contact with--old and new(er). I mean, these memories from middle school: do the other people involved think about them too? Do I ever cross their mind? I mean sure, I've got a mostly photographic memory (even though I'm losing it) and I probably think about a lot of things I've seen more than most people (so I assume). But these memories are so old and the people in them are long gone that sometimes they just seem like figments of my imagination. I can't find these people so maybe they never truly existed. Yeah there's a little picture of them in the yearbook but anyone who is anyone has a facebook too (haha). I'm just saying... it's weird to think of all these events in my life and all of the people that used to be in it.

I think about memories as fresh as Freshman year and think about people I used to talk to and when I look at all of these fond end-of-year messages in my yearbooks I wonder what happened.

But of course, I'm thankful for what i've been able to do in my life and all the people who are still in it--despite so many losses. My current friends and my girlfriend mean the world to me and I hope to never be without them.

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